Ladybugs Perch On My Cheek.

November.
NO!!! Vember.

ha. wow, I am internally laughing really hard about that. Kind of sad, really, that that makes me laugh so hard. I went and saw High School Musical 3 today (for, yes, the second time in theaters) and still laughed out loud. There were times when I was the only one laughing.

Seeing that movie makes me really appreciate my boyfriend. He is teaching Sunday School again tomorrow, and is sitting next to me preparing for it.

I was a hippie yesterday for Halloween and for the Mission Center party. I got a peace sign painted onto my cheek at our party... and it won't come off. It's still there, even though I hardcore washed my face and took a shower, trying to scrub it off. I feel bad for all the little kids who had their faces painted, because I know their facepaint probably didn't come off, either.

We currently have a ladybug problem in Kerr. They are everywhere. People keep complaining about it, but I would rather have ladybugs than snakes or rats. Ew, rats. Two of my girls had a mouse in their room the other day... I would have freaked out, probably. I do when I see them in the barn and chicken coop at home.

We grilled tonight, me and Shaun and some of our friends. At one point, they started asking us about when we met and our first dates and our favorite and least favorite dates. It was funny, talking about the good and the bad. They laughed a lot, and we did, too.

Seems that my posts lately have been so random and conglomerated. I guess that's what my life is like right now.

Trick Or Treat.

It's been one week.

Really? Is that all? Only one week since I last found time to breathe and update this thing? One week? It feels like a million. Every day seems longer than the last. Every hour drags on until I don't know where the time went.

Kerr Trick or Treat is tonight. Every waking moment of the last 5 or 6 days has been spent decorating my hall, occasionally by myself, sometimes with other girls, and once with Shaun. It's so tiring trying to get it to look right. And it's frustrating that some girls don't help at all. I just want to sleep. For a long time. And that is NOT a cry for help.

Sure, it will be worth it when all the kids come and their faces are super excited. Of course it will be worth it. But right now? I'm not feeling it.

They say I'm futuristic, and that my thoughts and dreams of the future are what propel me onwards to do good work. And yet... right now... I'm not futuristic. I'm just sleepy. Two more classes, then Trick or Treat, then work for 3 hours.

Praise Jesus that I don't have science tomorrow morning. What a blessing. I can't wait until tonight, when I can happily crawl into my bed and escape into dreamland.

Speaking of dreamland, I had a weird dream last night. Part of it consisted of my parents and I and a random kid (who was my younger brother??) driving down a road here in Shawnee and stopping at a random hotel. We moved all of our stuff (like 2 bags) into the hotel room, which was at the end of a hall, across from stairs leading to the next level up, and next to a bar/dance room. The room had a bed, a mattress on the floor, and a pile of blankets. We had been evicted from our house and had to move into this hotel. It was so weird. I remember being really sad, but determined.

Oh Oh My Love.

I ate lunch with a good friend yesterday. And it was such a blessing to be able to spend time with her again after not seeing her for a while. God is preparing her for an awesome 11 months, beginning in June, and I am so excited to see what He does in and through her as she travels the world.

Funny that two of my really close friends are traveling the world now or soon, and I have no strong desire to go anywhere right now. I think I want to work at a camp this summer, in Alaska, so that I can go home and be with my friends and family. I've always wanted to. But upon some internet research, I found that like NO camps in Alaska pay their summer staff positions. Working at a camp for half the summer in Washington would be fun, too. I could see Brad and Paige and Jeff and Dayna and Ryan a lot, probably. And fly home after that. It isn't expensive to fly from Washington to Alaska.

I got another American Girl catalog in the mail today and had it in my Principles of Middle School class. All the girls in there were like, "AMERICAN GIRL!" so we passed it around and all looked at it before class started. It was really fun.

My window has a draft in it, so my room is absolutely FREEZING right now.

I talked to a friend last night, and he was really encouraging, which was nice. I like friends like him, who are just like, "Hey, it's okay. I'll come shank them if I need to." He introduced me to a band called Tunng from London. I like them. They're kind of emo/folk.

I'm so grateful for friends like that, and for friends who like music, and for friends who are just themselves. It's freeing.

Friend.

I ate lunch with a good friend today. And it was such a blessing to be able to spend time with her again after not seeing her for a while. God is preparing her for an awesome 11 months, beginning in June, and I am so excited to see what He does in and through her as she travels the world.

Funny that two of my really close friends are traveling the world now or soon, and I have no strong desire to go anywhere right now. I think I want to work at a camp this summer, in Alaska, so that I can go home and be with my friends and family.

Thoughts.

It's a journey from Christianity to Christ.
Interesting thought.

Maybe people get so caught up in Christianity that they forget about Christ. They forget about how we can't be here without Him.

I Just Want To Be Free

Back at school now. Only about a month until Thanksgiving Break, then another month until Christmas Break. Still don't know what I'm going to do for those breaks.

I'm listening to "Folk-y" music, which is fun. I'm in a kind of folk mood. I like it. But now I just changed to Vanessa Hudgens. Ha.

I got a fun piece of mail today from the nurses at the emergency room. They wrote me a card hoping that I am feeling better. That made me really happy. I mean, wow. They wrote me a get well card. Awesome. I'm going to hang it on my wall just because it makes me laugh. I checked my mail and thought it was a bill, and was like, "Great." But then it wasn't!!

I read a book over the weekend called "How Full Is Your Bucket?" and it got me thinking a lot about my attitudes and how I view life and myself…Particularly myself, which is interesting, because the book is all about relating to other people. Due to various conversations that occurred this weekend, I spent a lot of time just thinking and trying to believe God's promises in His word, but struggling with it.

I'm going to work out tonight after dinner, for the first time in… a long time… besides the Wii Fit this weekend. I'm looking forward to a nice run… on the treadmill or on the track, I'm not sure yet. It doesn't really matter.

I'm also thinking about my major, and considering double majoring in Early Childhood Education. I am a little behind in my classes right now, credit wise, meaning I have to take like 17 credits a semester to graduate on time. And adding another major will make that even more difficult. However, I can take one or two J-Term classes and maybe an on-line summer class.

Really, I can't believe I have one more year after this one. Junior? What? How? Where did the time go? I am almost done. Then what?

• Marriage? We've talked about it.
  
• Grad School? Yes please – sometime. I at least want to earn my Masters, then maybe a Doctorate so I can teach others how to teach. (I vow not to teach from a textbook.)
  
• Work? That's a must, no matter what. Student loans need to be paid back. And bills need to be paid, also. And medical bills, since I am a recently discovered klutz and all.
  

Where am I going to live? Alaska? Oklahoma? London? Baltimore? Oh, heck! So many choices! The world is open to me… so freeing, but so SCARY!

Alas. I have class. Then dinner. Then the RAWC and I have a date. Then flag football (I'm watching, not playing). Then Mission Center. Phew. I love it.

Fall Break Beckons Me Forth.

Fall Break, Fall Break, Fall Break...

It has totally been a time of learning... about who I am and how I am viewed, etc. I pretty much had a nervous breakdown, but I am okay. :) Better than okay.

I retook my Strengths Finder test, and had different themes than before. I still have Strategic, Futuristic, and Positivity. But now I am also an Activator and a Maximizer, which seems more like me than the other two I had.

My wrist is bruising and is a pleasant shade of yellow, brown, and greenish-blue. I am having an allergic reaction (pleasant, I know) to the brace, so that's awesome... ha.

Realizations about who I am:
1. I like to move and get things done.
2. I get hurt a lot...physically. My Dad and I talked about this the other day. Funny. I never thought I was that accident prone, but I totally am.
3. I would rather watch TV than play video games.

It hasn't been that rough of a semester for me so far. I have projects to do towards the end of the semester but I love my classes and think I will love the projects, too. MMMmm.... I want some dinner, then to go DO something.

Fall Festival, perhaps?