7.31.2005

My Best Friend

So I realized at church tonight what I need... God. Like nothing else matters. I think He's been making all this happen with my friends so I can make Him the center. I need reminding that it is all about Him.

Spinnin' Around the Sun...

Okay, so I've said it before...

And I'll say it again. Emotions are horrible.

Like, Friday night, I spent the night at my best friend's house, and I felt left out because she took pictures with two of my other friends. How lame. Then Saturday morning, I kept going on and on about how she broke a pinky-promise.

God's convicted me of not being all about Him, and then today Pastor Tom preched about repentance and leaving marks in this world. Is my evidence here good? I DON'T THINK SO! Seriously, I've been a horible Christian lately. I know it isn't all about me, but often, I still want it to be.

I'm soo petty sometimes! I get jealous over stupid things. I mean, I know God created me, and He doesn't make mistakes. So what is my problem? I keep wishing I could change things about how I look and feel and just ME.

Is that really lame?

aargh.