What Rubbish

Oh my gosh. This is so lame. I can't believe he changed his story. So they are not taking any credit for this. How dumb. Okay, I know I said God is trying to teach me something, and I believe He is, but does He have to try so hard? Why can't He just like tell me instead of showing me?

I know this is cryptic. But I need prayer. Thank God for FISH today where someone (Hannah or Kristina, I think) mentioned my car. I sincerely hope that God places a burden on them and Cody and Chris and everyone at church to pray for me. I'm sooo going to need it.

Was he stopped? Did I run into him? I don't think so. That's not what he said to begin with.

My stomach is in knots. Literally.

I pray that someone saw what happened, that they come up to me at school tomorrow and tell me. I PRAY that.

I glanced down at my radio to see what station it was on, and next thing I knew, there was impact. I don't know if I looked up before he hit me, or right after. Oh my gosh.

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God, I pray right now that I'll have your peace. You are eternal. I don't know the outcome of this, but God, I know that You write what happens. You tell the stars where to stand and the waves how far they can go. You are in control. God, I pray that I will remember that and not doubt, like I often do. Bring the truth to light, and God, I pray that somehow You will be glorified through all of this. Make my family and I witnesses to him and his family. I pray that they see you in us. Oh my gosh. Just...work it out. That's all. God, I don't even know what to pray. Holy Sprit, intercede on my behalf... I love You, God. Forever and ever. In Jesus' awesome, beautiful, holy name I pray,
Amen.



"The Ocean" -Mae
(Kristina introduced me to this band in a very roundabout way. And I like them)

Am I alone in this?
Never a night where I can sleep myself 'til day.
We must try to figure it out, figure it out.
It won't be that easy.We lost it somehow.

You come over unannounced.
Silence broken by your voice in the dark.
I need you here tonight,
Just like the ocean needs the waves.
Oh, the night becomes the space that's somewhere in between
What I feel and what I'm told.

Sitting on the shoreline trying to figure it out, figure it out.
To find out the meaning
And reach it somehow.

You come over unannounced.
Silence broken by your voice in the dark.
I need you here tonight,
Just like the ocean needs the waves.
Fall around me now,
Like stars that shine and brighten the way.
I need you here tonight,
Just like this night it needs the rain.

The season has changed.
The wind, it blows colder now.(colder now)
The clouds are raised,
The rain it falls harder now, all around.

You come over unannounced.
Silence broken by your voice in the dark.
I need you here tonight,
Just like the ocean needs the waves.
Fall around me now.(So fall around me now)
Like stars that shine and brighten the way.

I need you here tonight,
Just like this night it needs the rain.(Rain)
(You come)Over unannounced,
(Will you come over)
Silence broken by your voice in the dark.
I need you here tonight,
Just like the ocean needs the waves.
Just like the stars that fall around me now.