7.15.2011

I wish people communicated more. That they TOLD what was on their mind, how they felt, etc. I am SO over not talking about things.

7.14.2011

Promises.

7-9-2011
1 Peter 2:9 “But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people belonging to God, that you may declare the praises of Him who called you out of darkness into His wonderful light.”

1 John 1:5 “This is the message we have heard from Him and declare to you: God is light; in Him there is no darkness at all.”

1 John 3: 20b “For God is greater than our hearts and He knows everything.”

Isaiah 55:8 “For My thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways My ways, declares the Lord.”

Psalm 55:2 “Cast your cares on the Lord and He will sustain you; He will never let the righteous fall.”

Put your whole weight on it, see it if stands – see if you can trust Me and My unfailing love for ever and ever. MY promises are true and are NOT dependent on man. I ALWAYS want you to be My bride. Rest.

Jeremiah 6:16 “This is what the Lord says, Stand at the crossroads and look; ask for the ancient paths, ask where the good way is and walk in it, and you will find rest for your souls.”

Jeremiah 29:11-14 “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future. Then you will call upon Me and come and pray to Me and I will listen to you. You will seek Me and find Me when you seek Me with all your heart. I will be found by you, declares the Lord, and will bring you back from captivity. I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have banished you, declares the Lord, and will bring you back to the place from which I carried you into exile.”

Psalm 23:4 “You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil, my cup overflows.” Even in the presence of your enemies, even amongst those who have hurt you and maligned you, I will be there. I will be there and I will make sure that you are provided for, according to My riches in heaven. My child, learn to rest there, in the middle of danger, not because you are unafraid, but because you are Mine. My greatest desire is to make you more like Me. In that, I want to drench you in My love, pursuing you in My divine power.

Psalm 27:3 “Though an army besiege me, my heart will not fear; though war break out against me, even then will I be confident.”

Though others forsake you, my child, I will receive you.

Psalm 31:7 “I will be glad and rejoice in Your love, for You saw my affliction and knew the anguish of my soul!”

Psalm 33:4 “For the word of the Lord is right and true; He is faithful in all He does.”

Melissa. My word is right. I am not wrong. I do not make mistakes. Remember? I told you that through your own words in Old Harbor. You are not a mistake. This situation is not a mistake. I make everything Good. My word is true. You can trust it. You can trust me. Take the promises and stand on them. I am faithful and I will not let you fall. I will see you through because there is more to be done on the other side.

Old Harbor.

Wed. June 29, 2011
12:00am ish

I’ve been home from the Mission Trip to Old Harbor for roughly… two hours. And even though I was only gone for ten or eleven days, and even though I stayed in Alaska, I feel as if I am reverse culture-shocking.

Laying in my bed, looking at all my stuff kind of makes me feel ill. Why do I need all this? It isn’t as if people in Old Harbor don’t have stuff – because they do – it’s how they view it. To them, it is necessary. A skiff to catch fish. A Honda to get around town. Clothes so you aren’t naked. There seem to be no pretenses because there isn’t room for them. And yet, they allow themselves to take pleasure in those things, enjoying the tools. Using the skiff to view Harbor seals and find sand dollars. Going over the hill on the Honda. Playing dress-up.

It’s also odd, the first few days, to be with different people, people who did not go on the trip, who will not understand what happened, no matter how many times and ways you explain it.



I think I am so tired and confused at this point that nothing makes sense… at all. Everything is loud and annoying and frustrating, so I’m going to bed. Tomorrow I am meeting with my future supervisors to talk salary, benefits, and a possible trip to Disneyland. But oh, what I would give to be back on that skiff, watching the seals, then on that beach, cavorting in the warm sand, playing I Spy with sand dollars.