Do I Dare?

My prayer, my thoughts:

Dare
by RISEabove

I imagine God in eternity looking down and thinking of me
and how He lost me to the one who is the enemy of His son
and I'm not sure what He thought next, but it was the recompence
of all the sin caused by me showing the Judge that I was guilty

now I imagine God on Calvarys tree, ripped apart and thinking of me
and of the way I'd treat His love, He knew of my unwilling heart
and He knew of my stubborn mind, my selfishness and my pride
He knew the way i'd live my life wouldn't show i'm thankful He died

do I dare to take God's place, throne myself and spit in His face
and do I dare to serve myself, enforce my will and put God on the shelf
and do I dare make God second best when it was He who passed the test
and do I dare forget calvary where He died to make me free

now I imagine God on his throne not requiring payment for His loan
but still crying when He sees how I live my life in the here and now
I put my agenda so high on the scale I know I must make God wail
even louder than when He was nailed to the tree cause the only one I serve is still me

now i imagine God at my last breath looking at my grade on His test
and then He looks at His Son Who nailed all the tests that i have failed
to a tree on golgatha so that i could see His Father
oh can You forgive me God for the worst deal You ever got