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Semester one is over. 5 more months and I'm done with highschool forever. Wow. 4 years ago, graduation seemed like foreever away. Now 4 years ago seems like yesterday. They always say time flies, but you never believe them until it actually does, and you're wondering how it got away from you so quickly.

At least, that's how it is with me.

Jade and I sat in the library for like one and a half hours today, doing really nothing. We listened to music...my i-pod battery died. We looked at some Teen People, and... practiced writing our names with two fingers. Haha. It was fun...boring, but fun. If that's possilbe. I'm gonna say it is because, hey. I'm writing this.

I find it captivating how I'm only really friends with people in certain situations. Like in Ecology, its only then that I'm really friends with Robert and Amie. And in FISH, I'm friends with Cody and Chris and Jonna, but that's really the only time we talk. Well, not really, but still. I don' t know.

I listened to a song I hadn't listened to in a while this morning. I really like it, but I kind of forgot about it. It's by...Something something Worship Circus. Big Tent Worship Circus or something. That's not it, but it's similar. It's all about the love of God coming into this town, and how it transformed every one. THere's this one line that says, "All the highschool parties were turning into worship raves" and I always thought it would be so cool if instead of dumb high school parties with drinking and drugs and stuff, if everyone got together and praised God. I mean, I know people do that in church and at youth group and stuff. But imagine all the "popular" people coming together and throwing away all their hinderances and just sprinting to God.

In Acteens last night, we did a service project at the Senior Citizen Center and when we were done, Megan and I ran up to Ms. Jean's house to sing her a song. So we go up there, and we're all out of breath, so we knock on the door, enter, and start singing to her. Megan starts all high and squeaky (we're singing "You Are My Sunshine") and I start laughing, so she does too, so the entire second half of the song is ruined because we're laughing. So Ms. Jean (I love her!) she says, "Thanks, girls..." and I say, "Sorry we started laughing." And she says, "Well...your intentions were good." It was funny.

Observation

I find it really funny when people act a certain way with some people. It's like, they raelly like the attention some people give them, but when those people aren't around, it's a totally different story.

Just an observation I had today.

Mirror

BARLOW GIRL
"Mirror"

Mirror, Mirror on the wall, Have I got it?
'Cause Mirror you've always told me who I am
I'm finding it's not easy to be perfect
So sorry you won't define me
Sorry you don't own me

Who are you to tell me
That I'm less than what I should be?
Who are you? Who are you?
I don't need to listen
To the list of things I should do
I won't try, I won't try

Mirror I am seeing a new reflection
I'm looking into the eyes of He who made me
And to Him I have beauty beyond compare
I know He defines meYou don't define me, you don't define me


You know those days when you don't feel beautiful? Those days when your hair is a mess and you don't have any clean clothes? And then you take a drink of water and instead of getting in your mouth, it ends up all down the front of your shirt? On those days, it's hard to remember that Psalm 45:11 says "The king is enthralled by your beauty..." And how cool is that?

FISH was cool today. FISH is always cool, though. It was just me, Cody, Chris, Jonna, and Jen.

I don't know. I grew up in a Christian home, so when I was five, I asked Jesus into my heart. I didn't understand discipleship and stuff then, so I never really followed God. I mean, I never did anything horrible. But then we started goint to Fairview Loop Baptist Church, and God totally got a hold of me. So then, I went to MYPD and I rededicated my life to Him, and since then, He's called me into missions, confirmed it to me, and is constantly working in my life, unless I stupidly let sin get in the way. So. I read my Bible every day. I'm not saying that to brag or anything, really, it's just true. In the morning, I write in my prayer journal, and read a part of my Bible, and then at night, I write in my prayer journal again, and then I do a Bible study, currently with the book "The Power of a Praying Teen" by Stormie Omartian. I won't let myself go to bed until I do those things. Even if it is like 11:40 p.m. and I'm exhausted, I still pray. I never thought that was weird. I mean, I like hanging out with God, so I do.

But today suring FISH, Cody asked who had read their Bible every day this week and I was the only one who had raised my hand. I mean, God likes us. He likes talking to us, and us talking to Him.

It's like, you know how it feels when a friend ignores you and doesn't talk to you for days on end? You know when you're talking and no one is listening? That's like God. He hates it when we ignore Him. When we go for days without praying, He doesn't like it. And when He tries to talk to us, and we don't listen, He doesn't like that either. I think people sometimes forget that God has feelings. He feels mercy, love, anger, and I'm sure He feels forgotten sometimes.

So I don't know. But I'm going to be praying more. And I want to get more into God's word. I just want to want Him.

Art. Blah.

I hate my art class. Well, no, I love it, because it's fun hanging out with Liza and Forrest, and listening to Ellen and Lauren and them, and I like pastels. But I can NOT draw at all. It's not even funny. It makes me want to cry. And we have to do a dumb final about a famous artist, and I can't even pick one, and then we have to make something similar to their art. It sucks.

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I Have A Super Cool Watch On Right Now

I wonder if the captain of the Titanic cried.

I would. I mean, if I promised thousands of people that this huge ship would never sink, then didn't put enough life boats on it, and I knew lots of people would die because I steered it into an ice-berg, I would cry. Granted, I've been crying a lot lately.

I've been reading this book I got for Christmas called "The Power of a Praying Teen" by Stormie Omartian and I raelly like it. I've been reading a chapter a night during my "quiet time" (I don't like that term. How can it be quiet if I'm talking to God and He's talking back!??) and every night for like the past week, every topic has dealed directly with something going on in my life. Not even kidding. Like one night, a few days ago, Jeff and I got in a massive fight, hitting, yelling, kicking, pushing, all of it. I was so ticked at him. So that night, I turned to the chapter I was to read, and it was all about forgiving people. Then last night the cahpter was about your words, and the GREAT affect they have on people and God convicted me. So, it's totally a God thing. It's really cool.

I got a haircut on Satuday and they cut like 4 inches off and no one has said anything. I have to keep reminding myself that it's actually NOT about me.

Got a letter from Sydni that made me happy.

And I'm really hungry now.

I like this whole "giving up boys" thing. On Sunday, I was getting really excited to go to church because I knew someone would be there, so I started to praying and asked for forgiveness, and asked God to direct my thoughts, and He totally did, which was awesome. I'm trying. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Phil 4:13

ahh, my tummy is empty.

A Compilation

A Compilation:

Something I love: my guitar
Something I hate: the flu

Someone I love: God
Someone I hate: It's wrong to hate. However, my feelings are not too fond towards Satan

Something I'm excited about: the Switchfoot concert in April!!!!!
Something I'm trying to be excited about: the arrival of our company

Someone I miss: Sydni
Someone I don't miss: you know who you are. Unless you don't. I don't really miss your mom

Something I fear: Tony scares me. :) lol
Something I'm trying not to fear: Tony. lol

Something I love to do: Laugh in art class
Something I don't love to do: get paper cuts

Something I ate today: popcorn
Something I haven't eaten in a long time: chocolate

Something I can see right now: my Nalgene. It's almost empty. Bummer
Something I have to turn to see: the copy machine. Guess where I am... :)

Something I say a lot: "I"
Something I don't say a lot: "Deuces"

Something I did in the last week: Drank a peanut butter milk shake from Valley Hotel. It was sooo good. And I went to an amazing concert. And I laughed a lot. And I talked to Brad. And I worked out. And I danced onstage at said concert. And I spun and spun and spun on a merry-go-round with Ashley and Jen and Titus. And I yelled at Maria to put some clothes on.
Something I depserately want to do: Get front row seats to Switchfoot in April. Memorize every word to every ThreeCordWonder song. Get an A on my next art class picture. Talk to Winston. Grow up. And get a life.

Something I have to do today: move my stuff into Brad's room. and get gas.
Something I have to do this week: be nice to our company. I'm trying. I swear. I'm just not excited. And I have to work on my Sunday School Lesson.

Something I need to learn: How to really, really trust God. How to put stuff in His hands and not take it back.
Something I learned recently: That if I jump a lot at rock concerts, my left calf will hurt. A lot. And not just for a day, but for several.

Everybody, Everybody, Come On, Clap Your Hands!

I could totally get used to being a rock star. Not that I'm one right now. But I think it would be the coolest job ever.

Friday night was the Audio Adrenaline concert. Front row seats. Indescribable. Oh my word. Tom Pine threw me onstage for one song, so I hung out on stage with the band and like 10 other people, which was amazing. And I got all of their autographs. I love concerts. I've been to loads lately: Tree63, Third Day, Newsboys, Jeremy Camp, Skillet, Rebecca St. James...Front row is definately the best.

I'm still so stoked about it.

Hanging out with Ashley, Jen, and Titus today...sweet. It seemed like something was wrong with Ryne during Sunday School. Maybe he was just tired. I would ask him, but we aren't really friends. Justkind of Sunday School acquiantances. Talked to Syderni the other day, which was so cool. I miss her tons.

That's all really. I'm wearing an Alaska shirt that was my mom's like 20 years ago. No joke. It rocks.